growing up

"I have a lot of work to do today;

I need to slaughter memory,

Turn my living soul to stone

Then teach myself to live again. . ."

(-Anna Akhmatova)

"The dogs are dead and I'm getting older.
I don't ever want to put them in the ground."
(-Cate Le Bon, 'Digging Song')

01. Greasing Up — DRINKS (2018)

02. Breaker — Deerhunter (2015)

03. Digging Song — Cate Le Bon (2009)
04. Why Do You Live in France? — Ed Dowie (2017)
05. You Could Be Better — DRINKS (2018)
06. Yellow Blinds, Cream Shadows — Cate Le Bon (2016)
07. A Hard Rain’s A-Gonna Fall — Bon Dylan (1963)
08. The Suburbs (continued) — Arcade Fire (2010)

(February-July 2018)

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and so on...

"When I was young, I thought I was old.

I sailed across the sea to Tokyo.

I thought there must be more to this world

than we're being told.

When you're young, you can afford to be bold."

(-'Youth', Beat Happening)

01. Cate Le Bon - January (2012)

02. The Growlers - Sunset Girl (2009)

03. H. Hawkline - Spooky Dog (2015)

04. Cate Le Bon - No One Can Drag Me Down (2007)

05. Tim Presley - Goldfish Wheelchair (2016)

06. Syd Barrett - Love Song (1970)

07. Faust - It's A Bit Of A Pain (1974)

08. Faust - The Sad Skinhead (1974)

09. H. Hawkline - Impossible People (2017)

10. White Fence - To The Boy I Jumped In The Hemlock Alley (2013)

11. King Krule - La Lune (2017)

12. Cate Le Bon - Disappear (2007) (check out the Bearded Ladies comp.)

(fall 2017)

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guest mix by dora

25 June 2017, Prague

01 Ian Dury and the Blockheads - Sex And Drugs And Rock 'N' Roll
02 Captain Beefheart - Diddy Wah Diddy
03 13th Floor Elevators - You're Gonna Miss Me
04 Lime Spiders - Out Of Control
05 The Nomads - She Pays the Rent
06 Iron Claw - Loving You
07 Creedence Clearwater Revival - Graveyard Train
08 Grand Funk Railroad -  Sin's A Good Man's Brother
09 Hawkwind - Brainstorm
10 Wicked Lady - I'm a Freak
11 Monster Magnet - Negasonic Teenage Warhead
12 Kadavar - Broken Wings
13 The Cramps - God Damn Rock & Roll
14 Martha and the Muffins - Echo Beach
15 Herman Brood and His Wild Romance - Rock'n'Roll Junkie
16 Sainte Anthony's Fyre - Lone Soul Road
17 Iggy & The Stooges - Raw Power
18 MC5 - Kick Out the Jams
19 Motorhead - (We Are) The Road Crew
20 Black Sabbath - Paranoid

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where could you go, where could you stay?

The cock crowing in the milky dawn thinks its call raises the sun; the child howling in a closed room thinks its cries open the door. But the sun and the mother go their own way, following the laws of their beings. Those who see us, even though we cannot see ourselves, open the door for us, answering our puerile calculations, our unsteady desires, and our awkward efforts with a generous welcome.

René Daumal, Mount Analogue

01. Aside From Growing Old - Cate Le Bon (2017)
02. Laying Down Rock - Drinks (2015)
03. Chairs in the Dark - White Fence (2013)

04. What's Not Mine - Cate Le Bon (2016)

05. Already On My Way - Travel Kyoto (2013)

06. Aura Aura - Tim Presley (2016)
07. Rock Pool - Cate Le Bon (2017)

08. Butter - Miyako Koda (2016) (reissue!)

09. I Am a Miserable Pig - Drinks (2017)
10. Razrushitelniy Krug (Destructive Cycle) - Kedr Livanskiy (2016) 

(january-march 2017)

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feeling like geometry

''And beneath all these uncertainties - the chromatic study - I know everything is perfect, because it followed its fated path regarding itself from scale to scale. Nothing escapes the perfection of things, that's how it is with everything'' –Near to the Wild Heart, Clarice Lispector

Count what was bitter and kept you awake,

Count me in:

(Paul Celan)

01. The Man I Wanted (All Soul's Church Organ Session) – Cate Le Bon (2012)
02. Dub's Bud – Pierre Bastien (2015)
03. Un Jour Avec Yusef – Domenique Dumont (2015)
04. Fourteen – Beat Happening (1985)
05. Colours and Soul – Dunkelziffer (1983)
06. More Real – The Necessaries (1982)
07. The Secret – Slapp Happy (2016) (reissue!)
08. Living in an Abandoned Firehouse with You – The Magnetic Fields (1991)
09. Through the Mill – Cate Le Bon (2012)
10. Hermits on Holiday – DRINKS (2015)
11. Fold the Cloth – Cate Le Bon (2012)

(december 2016)

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november: naïve questions

“One has to go away, leave the self. How far must one not arrive in order to write, how far must one wander and wear out and have pleasure? One must walk as far as the night. One's own night. Walking through the self toward dark.” –Hélène Cixous

01. Cuckoo Through The Walls – Cate Le Bon (2013)
02. Moss – News From Babel (ft Robert Wyatt) (1986)
03. La Fin De L'Innocence – L'Aventure Imaginaire (1980)
04. she's the star- i take this time – Arthur Russell (1986)
05. Feel You – Julia Holter (2015)
06. Gruesome Castle – The Wake (1987)
07. Crazy For You (Alt Version) – Slowdive (1995)
08. The Way Will Be Opening – Stereolab (1991)
09. Lay Lady Lay – Bob Dylan (1969)

(november 2016)

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dream I'm in the saltwater

"Can I waste all your time here on the sidewalk?

Can I stand in your light just for a while?"

01 City Appearing – Julia Holter (2013)
02 On The Sea – Beach House (2012)
03 I'm Deeply Touched – Nine Circles (1982)
04 Call it Fate, Call it Karma – The Strokes (2013)
05 Woher kommst du? – JaKönigja (2016)
06 The Return Journey – Woo (1990)
07 Fluorescences – Stereolab (1996)
08 No Romance – The Fates (1985)
09 Saltwater – Beach House (2006)
10 The Sacred Dance – Huerco S. (2016)
11 The Traveller – Beach House (2015)
12 Otherwise Fallin' in Love (Studio 1980) – Les Rallizes Dénudés (1980)

(september 2016)

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photo: Kovásznai György - A napló

Cascade Waltz / summer nights

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer." ~ R.M. Rilke

(may-june-july 2016 // what I've been listening to lately- in the warm California summer days, in the happy insouciance of youth)

01. Shinzo No Tobira – Mariah (1983)
02. L'Esprit de l'Escalier – Domenique Dumont (2015)
03. Awaawaa – Woo (2016)
04. Indian Food – Dumbo Gets Mad (2013)
05. Music Is Painting In The Air – Sensations' Fix (1974)
06. Gondzin – Edzayawa (1973)
07. Dinner's on the Table – Systematics (1980)
08. Lights – M.I.A. (2013)
09. Tides – Pierre Bastien (2003)
10. Ra Coaching Roland Williams – Nu Sounds/ Sun Ra (mid-1950s)
11. How Low Can You Go? – Essendon Airport (1981)
12. Cascade Waltz – Can (1976)

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Moon Moods

(may 2014 // ambient, experimental, field recordings, sound collage)

01. Fragment 1 - (Studio 1970) — Les Rallizes Dénudés (1970)
02. La Bou... — Yōran (1981)
03. Dream — Phew (1981)
04. Je Derve Avec Láir — Yōran (1981)
05. Revelation of Nammu — Sunhiilow (2013)
06. Picture Box — Pram (2000)
07. UMEgination — Yoshimi & Yuka (2003)
08. Lolimore (fragment) — Anne Gillis (1989)
09. Aleatoric Lullaby — Sonicbrat (2009)
10. Pent Flat — Georgina Brett (2012)
11. Evermore — The Meditone Project (2012)
12. Brontes in the Attic — Suckdog (1989)
13. Svanasöngur (Swan's Song) — Kira Kira (2012)
14. 砕け散る陽炎 — sh (1983)

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do we think too much? I don't think we can ever stop.

"Unfortunately I am a completely impractical person, caught up in endless trains of thought. All of us are fantasists, ill-equipped for life, the children as much as myself. It seems to me sometimes that we never get used to being on this earth and life is just one great, ongoing, incomprehensible blunder."

— W.G. Sebald, The Rings of Saturn

01. Six Space Shuttles and 144,000 Elephants — Lonnie Holley (2013)
02. Maryan — Robert Wyatt (1997)
03. Potter's Field — Alice Swoboda (2008)
04. Tezeta (Nostalgia) — Mulatu Astatqé (1998)
05. 1'ere Gymnopedie — Theatre of Cyrene (1987)
06. Tudo Tudo Tudo — Caetano Veloso (1975)
07. Sudden Stars — Stereolab (2003)
08. My Country — The Durutti Column (1989)
09. Lilac Wine — Nina Simone (1966)
10. Honey — Nu Sounds / Sun Ra (2003)
11. That's How I Feel — Sun Ra (1978)
12. Oscura Primavera — Can (2012)
13. Nostalgia — Weekend (1981)
14. Schöner Abend — Roedelius (1995)
15. Being It — Arthur Russell (1986)

(january 2015 // experimental rock, jazz, ambient)

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evening malaise

"Vienne la nuit sonne l’heure / Les jours s’en vont je demeure"

— Guillaume Apollinaire, Le Pont Mirabeau

01. Land of My Dreams — Anna Domino (1984)
02. Are Kisses Out Of Fashion? — Sudeten Creche (1982)
03. Silent Adoration — Tangible Joy (1985)
04. California Dreaming — Denial (1982)
05. Furious Sea — The Wake (1987)
06. Everyday, I Don't — Anna Domino (1984)
07. No War Bride — Algebra Suicide (1986)
08. Youth — Alive She Died (1985)
09. 27B4 'Rainy Day Sunshine' — John Bender (1980)
10. Agitation — Algebra Suicide (1987)
11. So Low — Carol (1981)
12. Hade — Vita Noctis (1984)

(january 2015 // early-mid 80s minimal synth)

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December Mixtape

(december 2014 // dreamy wistful 80s indie/ new wave - for cloudy days)

01. Party — The Durutti Column (1982)

02. Three Cheers For Our Side — Orange Juice (1982)

03. Sorry For Laughing — Josef K (1981)

04. Plastic Flowers — The Wake (1987)

05. (There's Always) Something On My Mind — The Pale Fountains (1982)

06. Dreaming — The Wee Cherubs (1984)

07. You've Got Me Beat — Swamp Children (1982)
08. Hugo Blanco — Ludus (1982)
09. Miss Moonlight — Stockholm Monsters (1983)

10. Something Outside — The Wake (1983)

11. B to A — Gareth Williams & Mary Currie (1985)

12. Mother's Footsteps — Height/Dismay (1980)

13. Antarctica Starts Here — John Cale (1973)

14. It's Cold Outside — Victor Dimisich Band (1983)
15. San Michelle — Dislocation Dance (1983)

16. A Small Mercy — Fra Lippo Lippi (1984)
17. Bizarre Love Triangle — Devine & Statton (1989)

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November Mixtape

(november 2014 // early 80s experimental rock & electronic pop)

01. Beguiling The Hours — Gareth Williams & Mary Currie (1985)

02. God's Buzzsaw — Ya Ya Choral (1982)

03. Chicken 80 — Social Climbers (1981)

04. Copper Hats — The Makers of the Dead Travel Fast (1981)

05. Safe And Warm — Gareth Williams & Martin Harrison (198?)

06. Curl Curl — Tame O'Mearas (1981)

07. Magic Table — Spike (1981)
08. Nonsense — Ya Ya Choral (1982)

09. When I'm Older — Systematics (1980)
10. Ultramarine — Belle Du Soir (1981)
11. Pussman Polka — Pleasant Peasants (1980)

12. Dancin' On My Sofa — Pascal Comelade (1984)

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Rumours of Rain

"She thinks that all this will probably come out all right, that it won’t end badly. Then she looks out at the smokestacks far away and nearly invisible across the sound and thinks, though, that this was not the revelation she was waiting for either."

— Lydia Davis, Break It Down

01. 夢 (Dream) — Les Rallizes Dénudés (1976)
02. Elipse of Flowers — Psychic TV (1997)
03. Turkish Boys at the Harbor — Pierre Bastien (2008)
04. Shambhala Signal — Haruomi Hosono & Yellow Magic Band (1978)
05. Love Dance of the Saroos — Joe Meek & The Blue Men (1960)
06. Valley of the Saroos — Joe Meek & The Blue Men (1960)
07. Raindrops from Heaven — Gareth Williams & Mary Currie (1985)
08. Eleven — Laughing Hands (1981)
09. The Seahorse Rears to Oblivion — Current 93 (1995)
10. White Rain — Laughing Hands (1981)
11. Rumours of Rain — The Invisible College (1982)
12. Eight — Laughing Hands (1981)
13. Journey to the West — The Mystic Umbrellas (1980)
14. Valley of No Return — Joe Meek & The Blue Men (1960)
15. The High And The Mighty — Solomonoff & Von Hoffmannstahl (1985)

(november 2014 // experimental, ambient, industrial)

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We Rule The Universe

(july 2014 // soft quiet dreamy 80s indie songs - all female-fronted except 'false sentiments')

01. Sob Story — The Beach Bullies (1980)

02. Shadow Box — Velvet Monkeys (1982)

03. Running Away — Twa Toots (198?)

04. Ayer Hice Una Casa — Aventuras de Kirlian (1986)

05. Normal Day — Bona Dish (1981)

06. Under Control — Neo Boys (1982)

07. Lunatic — Pink, Plastic & Panties (1981)

08. An Old Man's Dream — The Red Krayola (1981)

09. Sound of the City — The Cannanes (1989)

10. Love Has Solved My Problems — The 49 Americans (1980)

11. I Never Knew — The Avocados (1981)

12. False Sentiments — The Homosexuals (1984)

13. Backslide — Maestros & Dipsos (198?)

14. Apricot's Dream — The Particles (1980)

15. Everything & More — Dolly Mixture (1982)

16. August Grass — Big View (1982)

17. Legionnaires — Fifth Column (1983)

18. Hidden Faces — Unit 4 (1981)

19. True West — Dog Eat Dog (198?)

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June Mixtape

(june 2014 // 60s surf & garage rock, afrobeat, diy, post-punk, 80s indie, etc)

01. Pipeline — The Chantays (1963)

02. Orere-Elijigbo — The Lijadu Sisters (1984)

03. My Kind of Feeling — Basa Basa Soundz (1975)

04. Jungle Rock — Chimes of Freedom (196?)

05. I Don't Love You No More — The Continental Co-ets (1966)

06. Kerdja Kami — Dara Puspita (1967)

07. Theme De Melon — Milkshake Melon (1980)

08. Safety in Crosswords — Look Blue Go Purple (1991)

09. Driving Me — The Particles (1980)

10. This Nice World — Toxicomane (1980)

11. Rabble Rouser — Reversible Cords (1980)

12. Wild Mouse — Afrika Korps (1977)

13. Cuatro Mosquitas — Las Mosquitas (1965)

14. Still Living In My Car — The Homosexuals (1984)

15. Puffa Train — Cinematics (1982)

16. Ode to Booker T. — Young Marble Giants (1980)

17. Blue, All The Way To Canada — Moe Tucker (1991)

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